Why I Decided To Quit My Corporate Job
One day I discovered something very important is missing in my life - like a LIFE.
To the outside world, I look like I have everything I had ever wanted. I am happily married with a beautiful daughter, a career that gave me great pay. We went overseas for holiday at least twice a year. Life was beautiful, successful, plenty of friends and perfect family. I had every reason to be happy.
Living a city life is mad particularly we live in one of the most expensive city in the world - Singapore.
Property price is beyond sensible. Owning a car cost you an arm and a leg. And if you want to get a good quality childcare, you have to pay a premium for that.
Working life is hard, tiring and long hours. We earn more, work longer hours and are more competitive because everything costs more. We're working all the time, we even don't know who are our neighbours.
I woke up early morning when it was still dark, jumped out from bed while I can barely function as a human being yet. Rushed to get my daughter ready to go to the childcare. And it was already dark when I stepped out from the office before rushed out to her childcare to pick her up.
I walked like a zombie all the time, sleep deprived, busy, flat out and stretched out to the max.
It pierced my heart whenever my daughter asked me why the time is so short at home. Why did she had to go to sleep soon after dinner and we hardly had enough time to play.
Oh… don’t even mention about socialising part. We didn't even have enough time and energy to connect with friends or do things we love to do after work.
I felt like I was pulled in so many directions that I was on the brink of snapping. I think I am sucked into the common problem in the city life as I entered a time poverty crisis.
I tried shopping, spa visiting, holiday trip and I still feel unhappy and purposeless.
The job leaves me feeling drain and dissatisfied. So where did it all go wrong?
There simply doesn’t seem to be enough free time to achieve our goals and live the lives we work so hard for. Our careers take up too much of our time. The longer I stayed the more trapped I felt.
I remember the conversation I read from “Tuesday with Morrie”
"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."
So I QUIT.
I quit my full-time-with-benefits office job without having another official job lined up. This was a scary decision, it took a lot of courage even to myself.
I finally made it, and once I did I felt I could breathe again. The truth was, I felt liberated.
Sometimes we have to leave that path and find a new one. And if there is no new path to be found, we will create a new one.
And so...I found my LIFE back.